Death is hard.
This book contains candid discussions of suicide and the ways the world holds women responsible for the actions of their partners..
I wanted, most importantly, to keep DC alive in the only way I could.
I wanted to show this reality from the perspective of a flawed, grieving person.
That diary is And Marvel.
I did however, manage to keep a diary of this inevitable mental decline.
It was a bad decision.
Away from all the people who loved me, un-medicated, and isolated in a country where I didn\'t speak the language, I managed to incredibly successfully push myself over the edge.
Instead, I had a nervous breakdown.
This did not work.
I decided to escape from this reality by moving away to Basque Country, hoping to Eat, Pray, Love my way out of the survivor\'s guilt and PTSD.
This decision would go on to affect the rest of my adult life.
This was done, at least in part, because I had made the incredibly selfish decision to stop being his girlfriend.
He\'d taken his own life.
On the 28th April 2018, a young poet called Dan DC Collins was found dead in the woodlands by his home in Birmingham.
It\'s here.
It\'s coming.
It\'s as inevitable as manipulation and misogyny; as inevitable as love, conflict, insanity, sleep-deprivation, and broken hearts.
Death is hard