You try to understand how another human being could psychologically terrorize you in the manner that the Narcissist you were With did to you.
Well I totally believe you, I totally understand what you are going.
Again you are feeling you are the problem here and all of this has become insurmountable.
You are defending yourself when you shouldn\'t have to.
You have heard \'things\' your Narcissist has said about you to the very people you love in your life and now they may be challenging you or questioning this From the Narcissist\'s point of view.
Where do you start, how do you turn off the many negative messages? How do you reclaim your spirt and join life again? Who do you go to for the help that you need and WHY is this taking so long to get over? Every day is a struggle and you want this to stop NOW and you want to move on.
You feel like your spirit is gone and your whole belief system has been thrown out the door about life.
In turn you only feel like you are the problem and you blame yourself even more and MAYBE you start to believe that you were the problem just like that Narcissist said.
When you try to tell your story it is so incredulous that most people seem to be in shock over the allegations that you are proposing about the relationship.
Family and friends are there to support you but more than likely it is to give you a small pat on the back and say time will heal your wounds, or you HAVE to move on, OR how could you stay in this relationship for as long as you have if it was this bad.
You feel frozen in time, very vulnerable, and in shock or better yet traumatized From this and you want to dig through all of the layers and understand this so you can move on, BUT YOU JUST CAN\'T SEEM TO DO SO.
They are also saying that they basically had to run From YOU because you were impossible to deal with, or perhaps you have mental health issues, OR you abused them.
What did you do wrong, why did this person that you loved unconditionally now seems to hate you and blame you and WHAT IS THE REASON? They have probably moved on very quickly and are With someone new and they are saying that they are in love and it is amazing.
BUT today you are looking at this relationship and wondering HOW did this turn around in such a hideous manner that you feel so lost, so confused, so broken, and disabled.
They participated in the relationship and it seemed like \'normal\' reciprocation as far as them loving you back.
You loved this person and they SAID they loved you back.
You try to understand how another human being could psychologically terrorize you in the manner that the Narcissist you were With did to you
