In Keeping Heidi Close, Cindy Perkins shares her open and heartfelt pain, guilt, if only\'s, hope, tears, journaling, letter writing, bargaining, therapy, spiritual struggles, and all that came with the death of her young daughter in the car that she was driving.
This book is an invitation into her experiences and her heart and soul as she searched for new meanings and a way to learn to live with her pain and guilt..
She is reaching out to grieving parents and others experiencing profound loss so that, maybe, they might grab hold of something in her journey that gives them a piece of hope to grow from.
She does not.
She is not in any way saying she knows the answers.
There is no road map.
She would change every bit of that to have Heidi back, but that is not to be.
She has changed and grown because of the loss of Heidi and the experiences that she was forced to have.
She has learned how to hold her hurting soul and has gone on to have a wonderful, fulfilling life.
She has moved from those early days of not wanting to open her eyes to her new reality.
Yes, the pain is still in her heart.
Her perspective today to say Yes, I am here, in my life! speaks through the pages of this book.
She shares watching her young son struggle with the profound loss of his big sister and, later, his survivor guilt as he became the older brother, many years older than she ever got to be.
With openness and honesty, she describes the accident and the compendium of things she tried to help heal her heart after this unthinkable loss.
In Keeping Heidi Close, Cindy Perkins shares her open and heartfelt pain, guilt, if only\'s, hope, tears, journaling, letter writing, bargaining, therapy, spiritual struggles, and all that came with the death of her young daughter in the car that she was driving