You have tried to change, to improve yourself.
Besides, there are probably aspects of Your li.
Do you want to know why? Most of the time, no one has ever explained how to overcome these obstacles, or you lack the basic elements.
You see the light at the end, but you can never reach it.
You feel exhausted, stuck in a dark tunnel.
Then you think about how many times you started, and then you go back to the starting point.
Maybe you are still trying.
You have tried to change, to improve yourself