Carol Babcock had always been a hopeful optimist, even when it made no sense.
Not the or.
At her core, she was an explorer, so she turned from the religious status quo and entered a weird journey to seek God.
All her bible study and church going couldn\'t rescue her.
Her 35-year marriage was coming apart.
But in her mid-50s, she hit a wall.
Her main goal in life was to please those gods.
She willingly followed the paths others set - her mother, husband, and fundamentalist church.
Carol Babcock had always been a hopeful optimist, even when it made no sense